depressing.

i don't like blogging anymore.
i don't really read any blogs anymore
i should be stabilized on my meds,
but i don't think i am.
i feel the same if not worse
but at least just as bad.

a lot of agitation
restlessness
dissatisfaction
lack of enjoyment
apathy.

crap crap crap.

not so sure i like myself.
my life.

i keep trying to be enthused
but it isn't helping much.